Keep At It

But I have promises to keep, 
And miles to go before I sleep, 
And miles to go before I sleep.

Robert Frost

I sometimes need to tell myself to keep at it as well since I also find myself questioning if this music thing is worth doing given the responsibilities i have as I get older. Of course it is. But sometimes, we need that push...

I won't say I've achieved the succes I have wanted as an artist but I believe I'm getting there slowly. I may also sometimes feel that there have been years where I just wasted time not doing anything to move forward to achieve the dreams that I have but I realize that things take time and as it was mentioned in church, "preparation time is never wasted."

To be honest, at this point in time in my life, I also feel that I wasted some years. I think at my age, I should be doing this and that already and later find myself asking where I went wrong or what I did not do. There are a million thoughts trust me. But I keep at it. I keep at it even if I have tons of negative thoughts in my mind about pushing forward. I keep at it even if I feel that I am the only one who believes in myself (but that's the most important thing actually). I keep at it not because I don't have a choice but because I love music and the ability to make and share it. 

I honestly wanted to find myself at my age being able to make and play music that it was enough to support myself and possibly a family. But it's not. I need to work hard also to at least help keep my passion for music-making using technology provided for.

I guess not being where I imagined myself at this time is one of my insecurities and it sometimes gets the best of me but I soldier on. Things that I was hoping to happen 5 years ago, are just starting to happen now. I may be frustrated thinking about that but the good thing is, I am realizing the fact that it already happened and it's not just some unattained dream. The key here I guess is STILL taking steps FORWARD and not just standing on the little that we may have have achieved and calling it quits once we felt that things aren't going nowhere anymore.

You may be struggling with your very first composition. You may be struggling with your very first album. You may be struggling with your very first loop. The key now is to move on and not let those struggles affect your passion to make music or do whatever it is that you love doing. There may be delays and as you've read in the previous paragraphs, those are things others go through including myself. Just take steps to move forward and you'll find yourself with new challenges that will help you get closer to your dreams. Just be patient AND consistent. You may have some lull time but remember to move once you see yourself in a static state.

I am still off to my dream. I hope to get there soon but for now, I'll do the best that I can in the now and tomorrow will take care of itself.

Cy

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